This is your chance to tell me what you REALLY think about me.
Post anonymously, and post whatever you want.
Yell at me, confide in me, confront me.
Tell me the truth though.
Don't tell me you love me if you don't mean it.
Make me cry.
Make me laugh.
Move me.
Tell me a secret,
a crush,
a love affair!
Make it interesting.


I posted this a while ago, and I got a really interesting reply, so I'm interested to see what I'll get this time... :)

Last year, I asked people to give me songs to listen to and I liked most of them. Therefore, I have come to the conclusion that you guys all have really good taste in music, so I'm asking you again...since I'm bored with stuff that I've had forever and I have about 20 more GB to fill up on my iPod, please comment with some songs you think are good that I should download. :) If there's only one, that's fine, or if you have 20, that's fine too. Please?


Thanks!

Just a friendly reminder. :)

This is your chance to tell me what you REALLY think about me.
Post anonymously, and post whatever you want.
Yell at me, confide in me, confront me.
Tell me the truth though.
Don't tell me you love me if you don't mean it.
Make me cry.
Make me laugh.
Move me.
Tell me a secret,
a crush,
a love affair!
Make it interesting.

please?

Hey, I have an idea!

Anyone who reads this, comment with one song I should download. It can be anything and I'll download it...I love new music and I want to expand my horizons a bit, so I'll take anything you've got. Plus, I'm bored and I need something new to listen to. ;) Comment away!

Alright. This is phase two of mission group-volunteering. 'Tis very simple. All you have to do is email me at Love2Tap92@aol.com so I can have your address. Also, tell me what days you'll most likely be free (preferably weekends) so I can organize a group shopping trip or something so we can buy the food or whatever other items we're getting for the drives. In the meantime, please do what you can to raise money so we actually have some money to use.

One thing that I didn't know about when I was writing the other entry was that all police precincts are holding a toy drive for kids of all ages, but they're mostly looking for things for kids our age. They want stuff like CD players and board games. I think if we could get some money together and go to a place like Toys R Us or Best Buy we could get a lot of those things for reasonable prices, and could donate an awful lot.

Also, the place where I thought there was going to be a coat drive (Washington Mutual) said they weren't doing one, but they are doing a food drive. If we can split the money between the food drive and the toy drive, it'll still be a good amount that we contributed. I think those are going to be home runs...especially if we each raise $100 or so.

So. Email me and let me know, and start raising money! Hopefully I'll have a plan soon...a week from Saturday might be too soon, but it also might be our only option. Let me know ASAP. Thanks. :)

 

Alright guys. I need your help here because I can't do this alone. P.S. Once you read this, please pet other people know about it! Refer them to my livejournal so they can read this and ask them to comment. It would be so amazing if we got a huge group of people to do this. :D P.P.S. If you do this you get a hug automatically. And maybe a cookie later. ;) No, but seriously...this will be awesome.

Well, I've been hearing some things...not going to mention what...just that apparently "everyone in the school" reads my livejournal. And I'm not sure I want that, so:

Things guys should know about girls:

-Always say goodbye.
-Write us notes even if you think it's corny. This means so much more to us than you'll ever realize.
-When we're upset don't tell us to suck it up and be happy. Hold us in your arms and promise that everything will be alright.
-Whisper sweet nothings into our ears.
-By "sweet nothings" we mean like "I love looking into your eyes", "you make me so happy" etc.
-Make plans and keep them (except for extenuating circumstances, like if you're dying or something. In which case we'd want to be with you anyway so whatever.)
-Call us often, even if it's just to say hi.
-Talk to us until 3:30 in the morning.
-Hugs always make the world better.
-Don't talk about your friends constantly (unless, of course, you have the same friends).
-Dont' obsess over school work when you're with us.
-Don't brag if you do better than her on a test or something.
-Give genuine compliments often.
-Walk with us in the hall and don't be afraid/embarassed to hug or kiss us goodbye.
-Stop having sex with your calculator. Please.
-Don't make fun of us if we're depressed.
-Notice changes in our appearance and compliment us on them.
-Actually try to make conversation.
-Don't be perverted. At any rate, don't flaunt it.
-Don't mind us if we're picky. We love you anyway.
-Always be yourself, no matter what. Don't be a different person around different people.
-Recognize her handwriting.
-Don't flirt with other girls. At least please try not to. And if you do don't let us know or do it in front of us.
-Don't get jealous if we have friends that are guys because we don't get jealous that you have friends who are girls.
-If you don't see them, say "I miss you" even if you don't want to admit it.
-Sometimes little things mean more than big things, and guys who can see that know a lot more about girls than they think they do.
-Know how to spell our names!
-Say "I love you" only if you mean it.
-If she's sick, call her and talk until she laughs. (Bonus points to the guy who brings her soup or tea.)
-Love us for who we are, and don't compare us to any other girls.
-If something is bothering you, let us know what it is.
-Write "I love [insert her name here]" in your profile. It means a lot more than you think it does.
-Don't ever go more than a week without seeing us.
-Don't fall asleep while you're talking to us.
-Don't ever say you "want to kill us" even if you're joking. It still hurts.
-Make us laugh.
-Give us a cute (meaningful!!) nickname. Not something stupid like Schnickerdoodle unless it means something.
-Don't be more infatuated with electronic gadgets than you are with us. Unless you're going out with Allie. In that case, you can both be infatuated together. ;)
-Please, please don't be a jerk-watch what you say to us.
-Don't be overbearing or try to hard.
-Take us to the movies and hold our hand.
-It doesn't matter where we go or how much it costs, all that matters is that we're with you.
-Kiss our foreheads.
-Sing songs with us and don't say they're mushy.
-After we give you a compliment, smile and say thank you.
-Be emotional. If you're upset, say so. If you're happy, say so. If you're sad, say so. Get it yet?
-Don't ditch us to watch TV and play videogames.
-We don't care about gifts. Little things are cute though ( like McDonald's toys! ).
-The word "beautiful" is the most meaningful.
-If we're cold, lend us your sweatshirt or put your arm around us. Make it your personal mission to keep us comfortable.
-Know how to play more than three card games.
-Take us out one night just to look at the stars.
-Don't be overly vicious when playing games.
-Bake cookies with us!
-Don't try to show off or be overly macho because we love you anyway and it's just annoying.
-Let us know that we can tell you anything.
-Don't tease us about things that make us upset. (So think before you speak, please!)
-Call us whenever you can, even if it's just for a minute and thirty-five seconds.
-Have common sense! (Or get some!)
-Okay, obviously no guy is perfect. And obviously no one can possibly follow this whole list, and we don't expect you to. But what matters is if you read this and didn't say "this is a load of crap." If you respected anything you read and will attempt to take it to heart, we love you. And if you seriously want to try to be "the perfect guy" for us, that's all that really matters.




"For every girl who is tired of being called oversensitive, there is a boy who fears to be too gentle to weep."

It's late. I'm tired. I have a horrible headache and I want to go to bed. Life is sorta sucking right now. Everything I do is a lose-lose situation. My friends are the most awesome people in the world. Climbing trees is fun except scary when you're in Keds. I think the one guy on our cheerleading squad thinks I'm a real cheerleader. Which is scary. Er. Chris finds it weird that my sister gets asked out. I do too. Go figure. I need a hug. Goodnight.

Ini is amazing and like my best guy friend in the world. And he makes me cry (in a good way) but he's still amazing. :D

Last night was the Halloween party and it totally rocked. Even though only four people (Ini, Joe, Ashley and Alison) came. Chris crapped out because "he was too tired", Kate and Justin Shoe couldn't come because they had a sweet sixteen, and everyone else I don't know why they weren't there. But it was fun anyway. My sister had her friends here too and we played some games like wrapping people in toilet paper and the yardstick game where you have to spin around 15 times while holding a yardstick and looking up at the top, and then you have to put the yardstick down, jump over it, and go sit in a chair on the other side of the room. Ashley refused to do it because of a bad experience last year =P so my cousin Darby was on our team. We owned Sarah and her friends. Haha. Joe took a spill and one of Sarah's friends crashed into Alison, rebounded, hit the TV, and then collapsed on the floor. It was really funny. :D In the mummy-wrapping contest we lost time-wise but won for the neatest job. ;) We did the Time Warp and the Macarena and Justin told us what it was about and the motions you do are apparently the steps of making out? Okay, yeah. Sorta made a little sense, actually, which scared me a bit. Apparently if you translate the song it's about a Latino hooker? Suuuuure. And we had a pinata! My cousin got to hit it like 9 times or something because it's his birthday, and then no one else wanted to hit it so we made Joe hit it, and he knocked it off of the string and it flew across the room and hit my sister's friend. It was amazing. Hahaha.

Today was Emily's sweet sixteen and it was AWESOME!! It was sooo much fun and Emily looked beautiful, as always. She had this pink poofy princess dress and it was absolutely gorgeous, and Justin dressed up as the Phantom so that was really cool. I had a mask but I didn't really wear it (I had it on for like a minute and then took it off because it was uncomfortable). The music was good, for the most part, and it was just really awesome. They didn't play Pour Some Sugar On Me, but there's still Liz's party in less than a week, so it'll be alright. I think that's the last sweet sixteen though! :( That makes me sad. Hence the sad face. I love sweet sixteens!

Hm, time for an insane rant.

I'm lonely. There it is, I said it, I'm lonely as hell and I really want a guy. It seems like everyone is pairing up...I can count at least three couples that just started going out in the past few weeks. And it's depressing because I want to be one of those people. I want to find someone who will care about me, who will love me--or just like me, for goodness sake!--for who I am. I want someone who won't care what we're doing as long as we're together, who won't ditch me to stay at home and play video games, who will just want to be with me because they enjoy my company. I want someone who will comfort me when I do badly on a test, or something happens with my parents, or I have a fight with a friend. I want someone who will surprise me with roses for my birthday or an anniversary or for no reason at all. I want someone who will hold my hand and walk me to class, who won't be embarassed to hug or kiss me in front of people, who can hold me in his arms and make everything okay. I want someone who will give me a sweatshirt that smells like him so I can think about him whenever I'm wearing it. I want someone who will do his best to memorize all three of my phone numbers, my birthday, and our anniversary, and if he forgets it'll be okay because I'll know he tried. I want someone my parents will like, my sister will like, and my friends will like. I want him to be smart, sensitive, and kind, and he has to be able to make me laugh. In short, I'd like him to be perfect. But if I can't have perfect, I'd like at least a few of the things I've mentioned. ::sigh:: I guess I'm done...

PS. If there are any guys out there who fit that description, feel free to introduce yourselves. There've gotta be some of you out there.

Hm. Two colleges I'm looking at are "good matches" but the one that I was considering most heavily is a "safety" school. Interesting.

I owned that band test. And by owned I mean probably failed but did better than Nick. =P

French Honor Society meeting was interesting. Arguing over fundraisers for half an hour...I personally like the patriotic bottled water or first aid kit idea.

Kara almost died when she stapled her finger in SO today. ::shakes head::

I can't believe I missed an A by one point on that physics test. And that the trip was canceled. >:(

Kate called this morning and asked me to give Joe a hug, so I did. It was awkward. But whatever.

Um. It's not possible to flirt when you never see the person. :(

I'm going to fail the US test tomorrow. But at least I studied!

My dad doesn't want to let me do competition in January. And that makes me sad, because I have a duet. I'll just have to explain that they need me...if it was a swim meet he'd have no problem with letting me go. Whatever.

Mrs. Cardinal only checks homework on the days that I don't do it. This makes twice. Grr.

I actually did something on my own in computer science today. Like, completely on my own. Did I receive help from Kara? No...when I said, "Wow...I have no idea what I'm doing" Kara was like, "Yeah, that one was confusing" and continued with what she was doing. =P

Kate called me again when I was on my way to math. Random.

I almost convinced Eissa to join SO. He seemed interested but he has work on Tuesdays. Poo. And Kadi has been meaning to join but hasn't gotten around to it.

No one passed the food science test I made.

My dog has the most amazing Halloween costume ever...it's a hippie, and she has a fro and everything. :D

This entry is totally not in any logical order whatsoever.

I get to get up ten minutes later tomorrow because my mom's driving me to school. 8-)

I'm supposed to be cleaning my room right now but I'm too lazy to move.

I haven't started math or english homework yet.

I walk back into SO after calling my mom and Sara, in an attempt to update me on what she, Lindsey, Ashok and Chris were talking about, said "We were talking about how I'm so flat." And I interpreted it totally wrong.

She was talking about in band, people!!

My mom was disappointed to hear that Willman is married.

I want to go ice skating.

I hate not being able to breathe.

I'm going to stop here and (attempt to) do something productive.

Oooooooooh there's a thunderstorm now. And my sister's freaking out but whatever. It's kinda funny, actually. I should be sleeping, but I wouldn't be able to sleep with the thunder anyway so eh.

Last night was pretty fun, the gang came over and as usual we were crazy. Ini tried to teach me and Kate and Emily to moonwalk but I don't think it caught on. We listened to Allie's dirty DDR songs and some techno Beethoven which was sort of scary...it was Fur Elise played like on a synthesizer and some Asian girl saying "Beethoven! Beethoven!" in the background. Weird. Then we were making up a story to call Delilah on star 99.9 with to see if she'd play a song we requested...the story was that this lady Gloria was calling and she just had a bad breakup, her boyfriend left her for her brother...and she hopes she didn't turn him gay. Allie had a really good fake cry going but she would've burst out laughing, so we asked my sister to do it because she'd be able to do it with a straight face, but we never found the number to call. We'll find it one day. ;) 

Today was the boringest day ever. All I did was eat and watch TV until we went to my mom's "special friend's" son's birthday party at his house. And it was extremely boring so less than an hour into it my sister was begging my mom to take her home (we lived like two minutes away) and I was begging in my mind (I didn't want to say anything because I felt bad). So she took us home and I got on the couch and watched "Scariest Places on Earth" for two hours and then Law & Order and now I'm here. And Mom's still not home. And it's a torrential rainstorm outside and ahh didn't we get enough rain already for like a year and a half? Ugh.

I'm so excited for Tuesday. Adventureland with the Westies and then Science Olympiads...what could be better? Not much. Speaking of which, I should make a test or two now so I don't have to Monday night...hm.

I have dance tomorrow at 9:30 and I don't really want to go that early...ugh...but I missed the first practice so I guess I better. My dad's chewing me out again about dancing, he doesn't want me to do competition and says he'll refuse to give me rides on Sundays which I understand, I hate going on Sundays too...but maybe I'll be able to talk them into letting me come only every other week. I doubt it, but maybe...then watch, the competition will be on Dad's weekend and he won't let me go anyway. >:( That would just be my luck too. He says that I really have to "buckle down" and concentrate on school work...but I mean, what else have I been doing my whole life? It's not like I get A's entirely without trying...yes, most of the time the effort is minimal, and I'm not trying to brag, just stating a fact...but the fact is that I do try. And if I have to try a bit harder this year, I will. And I have been. So leave me alone, I can handle things by myself, thank you. Then he complains that I have no time management. Excuse me, just because I don't tell you what my plans are doesn't mean that I don't set them for myself. To be completely honest, if I decide to get up ten minutes later or something in the morning, first I figure out exactly (well, estimating, but whatever) how much time I can take to do things that I usually do. Okay, I can only spend y minutes on my hair this morning instead of x minutes. Yes, I'm being completely serious. Yes, I'm a nerd. Any questions? I do that with homework too. I'll get home, eat something and relax or whatever for a little while, and tell myself, "Okay, I'll start homework around [insert reasonable time here] so I'll be done at [insert homework completion time here] and then I can shower and go to bed, and it'll all be happy and good." But then my dad walks in and says, "Why aren't you doing homework?" and I get an hour long lecture about how important eleventh grade is and by then I'll be past the time I had planned to start my homework and my whole schedule is thrown off, and then I get yelled at for that! It's a control thing...when I'm in college in a few years I bet he'll be calling me every night to make sure I'm studying and not partying. He's freaking insane. And I didn't mean this to turn into a rant...sorry.

Anyway, the thunderstorm is over so I guess I should go to bed now...goodnight!

Today was awesome like whoa.

Well, the first half wasn't so great (piccolo wasn't in tune in band, english is retarded, US is boring, and I got a C+ on my physics test :\) but the second half was amaaaaaaazing.

Sixth period, everyone in a French class got to go to WEST (YAY!!!) to see this cabaret thing, so I got to see Ashley and Kate and Jill and Justin and Vicky and Gail and it was awesome. During it Jill kept making everyone laugh because she would purposely misinterpret what the singer meant and during this one song we were laughing so hard and Mme Gallagher (I feel bad for all you Westies who take French...she seems like a nightmare :( ) was motioning at us to stop and I felt bad because it wasn't really a song that we should be laughing during but whatever. At one point she went up to Justin who was "strong like a bull" or something, but she pronounced "bull" differently so it sounded like "bool" and it was funny. Then during this other song she was walking around and like touching all the guys and she sat on Matt Hull's lap and caressed his chest and everyone was laughing because it was pretty hysterical.

After the cabaret, we realized that we probably wouldn't get back to East in time to have any time left in ninth period, so Sara and I decided to stay and wander around. As we're looking for a bus that'd take us back to East, a security guard came up to us (Tim Borbet was there too) and asked where we were supposed to be. We explained that we were here from East but faltered when he said, "Well, isn't that your bus out there?" Tim came to the rescue and said that we had permission to stay so he said, "Why don't you stay in the cafeteria and wait?" So we were like "okay" and walked toward it (without any intention of going in, by the way) and as we passed the door he must've been watching us because he said, "It's right in there, ladies" so we went in. We stayed there for a minute and then left and went into F Tower (we were in E) and were about to come out of the tower when we ran into Denise but saw the security guard at the same time so we ran back into F Tower with Denise saying, "What's wrong? Why are you running in circles?" We explained and then went back into E Tower and went up the stairs to avoid the guy, then went back down the stairs by the gym. We were walking down that hallway when the same security guard showed up again! So we tried to turn down the hallway and he saw us and said, "Girls..." and beckoned to us...sorta creepy, actually. So we figured we were in trouble but when we got over to him he said "Do you know Ashley blahblah?" and we said we didn't, and he asked us a few more times just to make sure and then told us we weren't allowed to be walking around in the halls and I said I was looking for a teacher and he said to go to the main office and then asked us one more time if we knew Ashley whatever and then walked away. Toward the main office. And we walked the opposite way. Stupid security guards. I think it was around then that Sara and Tim found Miss Heal, so I went into the science prep room and asked where Ms. Schachter was. I found out she was in C105 and it took me forever to find it (I was literally running up and down the halls like, "Okay, here's 107. ::runs down hall:: Okay, here's 103. ... WHERE'S 105?!" I finally found it and walked into the middle of a crime scene, but since it wasn't anything big I got to talk to Ms. Schachter for a few minutes which was awesome because I miss her soooo much. Then I heard someone say my name and it was Michelle! She was in the forensics class that I was randomly standing in the middle of haha so I got to see her too which was nice because I haven't seen her in forever. Then Sara and Tim came in just as I was leaving and said that it had taken them forever to find the room too. Then we went to Kate/Ashley/Jill/Aimee/Justin's physics class after the bell rang and hung with them for a few minutes, then Sara and I actually found the bus that would take us to St. James. Before we got on, though, we saw Heather (!!<3) and Gail and said hi and then we got on the bus. I realized when we were on the bus that on the list of stops, Mills Pond was listed first and the stop that we intended to get off at was halfway through the route. We were coming down Edgewood toward 25A so I asked the busdriver if we could get dropped off at 25A. He said he couldn't just stop where we asked him too so Sara and I figured we'd just be REALLY late to the meeting, but then after a minute he said he'd drop us off on 25A. So we get off the bus and we RAN from Mirabelle's or whatever to the school (with walking in between, yeah, but we ran a lot of it even though I had my bag and Sara was in flipflops). It was pretty funny, people were definitely giving us weird looks as we ran by...hahaha it was amazing. We get into SO and Kara and Chris are like, "Where WERE you guys?!?!" It was really funny hahahahahaha. One of those high school memories that we'll look back on and be like, "remember when..." and yeah. I have a feeling we're going be roasted about that...but whatever. It was funny.

SO was pretty normal...I gave the food science test and as usual only Chris passed...haha he got a D+ this time because I was going to give him half credit on a question but he said I didn't have to so I didn't...but with the extra half point he would've had a 73. Oh well. The other two freshmen got 4/13 and 5.5/13. ::shrug:: Whatever. It was an easy test, too, just about reagents (iodine and Benedict's and such) and I threw some mono/polysaccharide questions in there. I guess it's not so easy because they don't have biology (most of them, anyway). Either way. Then Greg finally came, and I gave him some rules and yeah, it was all good. Kara and I were twins today with our matching pink Superman polo shirts and jeans. And it was exciting. Good day. :)

Well, I must be going to ballet (greeeat) so I'm going to do that. Comment! ;)

(I'm stealing this from Alison because she's cool.)

-Science Olympiads.
-Kara. :D (Don't Bug Me people!!)
-Feeling smart in physics.
-Listening to my iPod.
-When my flute is in tune.
-Flowers (especially roses, in case you couldn't tell from my layout).
-Bright colors.
-Being in line on time to get cookies at the school store.
-My laptop working.
-Law and Order.
-The remix version of "A Little Less Conversation".
-Finally finding a song that I'd been looking for foreverrrrrr.
-Swimming and feeling fast.
-Going out with my friends on Fridays.
-New puppies.
-Halloween.
-Seeing old teachers.
-Getting off from school in the middle of the week.
-Seeing my cousins.
-Long hot showers.
-Hearing about Kevin getting flagged.
-Doing well on sit-and-reach without even trying.
-Laughing so hard I cry.
-My sister being high on Mountain Dew. 
-"It's a bad day for the Kevins of the world"
-Push-up pops!!
-Double-Stuf Oreos.
-Getting mail.
-When I feel pretty (which isn't very often).
-"Smell my finger!!"
-Whose Line is it Anyway?

I'll think of more eventually.

Band: Kalabza yelled at us because we weren't in time and weren't practicing. And she was completely right. Also, she keeps pronouncing Eran's name wrong (like Aaron with an E) instead of eh-RAHN and it bugs me. Oh well.

English: We got our scores back on the Minister's Black Veil test and I got a 60. Ergh. But somehow she said my average is like a B+? I hope she's not lying.

AP US: Some stuff that I didn't pay attention to...notes and crap.

Physics: One of the whiteboards fell down and scared me to death. Then he took out a noose and that was pretty scary. Ummm, some other stuff happened but I don't remember.

French: Went over provinces? Um okay. Sure. Signed up for Safe Halloween. Wahoo.

Gym: Got out of the first few minutes because I got called down to guidance with Chris and Molly Greenblatt and they asked us to go to some workshop tomorrow after the assembly. We agreed. Yay for getting out of 5th period physics tomorrow! When I got to gym we did sit-and-reach and I got a 35 without even trying...because I don't try in gym anymore. Even though now you can't just have a pulse to pass gym...you need to be conscious too. =P

Math: Some stuff that I don't remember how to do. Uh.

Computer Science: I think I might actually be getting the hang of this. :)

Science Olympiads: Volume 2 was delivered to Chris. ;) Freshmen failed the tests and there was blatant cheating. Like, completely obvious. Grr. Chris did the best on the food science test I made up (predictable...he's the only one that had AP bio) and a freshman write-it/do-it team performed perfectly, so that was good and I was happy. The other team sucked. Whatever. It's the highlight of my week by far. Sara's sister is the coolest freshman because she doesn't act like a freshman. :) "Don't Bug Me people!!!" (For the second time this entry.) Yay!

Respond with your name and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll tell you what I like about you
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

I lovelovelove Fridays. Especially when they're immediately following a "Monday". Yay!

We went to Joe's tonight and it was a lot of fun. :D His new puppy is the cutest thing ever and was definitely the center of attention for most of the night. I can't even remember most of what we did but it was a lot of laughing (of course) and just a good time. I pegged the hacky sack and tennis ball at Justin and Chris just for fun and Justin had this amazing fold-up frisbee thing that was way too amusing for our own good. Then Justin, Sara, Kate and Joe went outside to play frisbee with Justin's light up one and Alison, Ashley, Frankie, Chris and I stayed inside. Interesting conversations. Then the frisbee people all came to the window and since it was dark it looked really weird, and they had their shirts/shorts/bra on their heads so it looked even weirder. I thought Kate was Jill and a few people thought Joe was Sara (apparently the shorts on his head looked like hair...?). Chris taught me that if you mouth "vacuum" at someone it looked like you were saying "f*** you" which I found interesting...it was funny the way he told me because he said that he said "vacuum" to Kate and I must've had this really confused look on my face because then he explained why. Haha of all things to talk about, we talk about making it look like you're cursing when you're not. Of course, it helps (so much that, unless you've been in the same position, you have no idea) that that things weren't the slightest bit (okay I guess they were a little but I guess that'll always happen) awkward. And if you followed the train of thought of that sentence I'll be very impressed, because I can barely follow it myself when I read it. And yes I'm too lazy to change it.  ;) What a good night. Except it was raining when we left. Pfft.

Yay for a three-day weekend coming up! I'm psyched. And I have an amazingly huge amount of homework but I can take three days instead of only two! :)

Ooooooooooh I got a laptop! And it's a Mac! And I'm really excited!! (Just in case you couldn't tell.) I tried to set it up last night but it had to be connected to the internet and since it wasn't (I haven't gotten a wireless router yet) I couldn't do anything. Which was poopie. But it's okay, I'll be able to do it Monday, hopefully.

Hm...nothing else new...so I'm gonna go. Comment if you want. And you know you want to. :D

Today was quite a rollercoaster. Quite. Let's make a list, shall we? We shall.

Band: Fun-ish, playing this wicked hard song that yeah I can't play but maybe I'll practice over this random weekend thing. It's fun though because I sit next to Nick Prakas and he's pretty awesome.

English: This is where things started to go downhill. We got our Caged Bird essays back and I got a C, which makes me sad and pretty much screws me over for...everything. We also had a pop quiz on The Minister's Black Veil and it made me feel stupid because I knew the answers to the questions but I forgot them. :( I hate english. A lot.

AP US: I just hate this class in general. Stupid Miss Suga called on me when I didn't have my hand up because she thought I wasn't paying attention (why do they always call on me?!?) but I smoked her when I got the answer totally right without reciting from the review book. Score.

Physics: Jess came to fourth period because she was missing her first period of physics (8th) for lessons. Then she and Kara left fifth period and Allie, Alison and I went to the school store and I wanted chocolate chip cookies but they didn't have them and I was sad. :( The second period of physics was sorta cool though because we just went over vectors and didn't have to take notes, and he finished like ten minutes early and we got to have some free time, and Allie showed Alison and me this song that was called "Oh Nick Please Not So Quick" but it was like this bouncy melody and if you didn't know what it was about you'd never think it was about was it was actually about. Haha. Yup fun stuff.

French: Denise can't swallow pills and people were making fun of her. More presentations and they pretty much sucked because no one can speak French anyway.

Lessons: I missed computer science today for lessons, ew, I'm screwed for Thursday in computer science and also for the playing test on the 17th because it's the whole song up to tempo and guess who doesn't have enough time to even finish her freaking homework let alone practice her stupid flute/piccolo!! ::dies:: I love Ms. Kalabza, though, even if she's crazy and actually expects me to practice.

Math: We got to work in groups so it was kinda fun...hyperbolas are confusing and circles with fractions in the formulas are fun to try to get when you're working in a group because everyone gets confused. Mmm yeah.

Research: Asked Miss Trinkle how much it'd hurt me to drop the class. She said it probably wouldn't really at all but there would be a W for Withdrawn on my transcript, which I don't want. So I guess I'm stuck. She also thinks that she's getting productivity out of me...hahahaha that's sorta funny because she's so wrong. =P

Swimming: I fell asleep on the bus ride there. My swim cap broke, and I was sad. Except not really because I don't like the latex ones anyway. Jill couldn't stop sneezing. We did some sprints at the end of practice and they weren't so bad. The college came today and they had like five people so they were all in one lane (the MIDDLE one, of course...they couldn't go on one side or the other or anything, that would make things to easy for us) and we swam around them. There weren't a lot of people here today...only me, Jill, and this other girl, Lindsey, I think, in the practice lanes, so we had the little pool all to ourselves and it was kinda cool. But then I choked on some water during backstroke. Ew. I think my butterfly is getting better, though...maybe it was only because I was wearing those flippers. Hm.

Then I went home, had some dinner and watched part of Finding Nemo, and then went to Chris's at about 7:30. Sara, Alison, Allie, Justin Shoe, and Joe were there, and Ashley came later. We played some intense Monopoly and it gives you good luck if you throw the dice at Sara instead of rolling them, especially if you hit her in the chest ("What chest?" - Chris). We also tried to watch Billy Madison at the same time and it was hard and people kept forgetting to charge people for rent, and that made it interesting. Chris is like the supreme ruler of Monopoly (in groups, anyway...I beat him a few times one-on-one) and made Sara and Alison go bankrupt, so Joe, Justin, Allie and I decided to pool our money and properties so we could try to beat Chris as one entity. Sara, Alison and I had to leave at about ten, though (everyone else left at eleven) so I didn't get to see the end of the game, but Chris has just informed me that it was a tie. 

Yeah, so I think Jess might implode from the anticipation if I make this entry any longer so I'm gonna end it here. Comment. :)

Edit: Circle, square, triangle, rectangle...bank account?? Oh man I love computer science with Kara (not as much as bio, though).

How Many Songs? 570

Sort by Song Title
First: 100 Years - Five For Fighting
Last: Zero to Hero - Hercules

Sort by Time
First: Her Majesty - Beatles (0:23)
Last: Tainted Love/Where Did Our Love Go - Soft Cell (8:56)

Sort by Album
First: 10 Things I Hate About You Soundtrack
Last: X & Y (Coldplay)

Top Five Most Played Songs
1. Swing Swing - All-American Rejects (99)
2. Addicted - Simple Plan (91)
3. Hey Baby (I Wanna Know If You'll Be My Girl) - (69)
4. Everything is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack (65)
5. The Middle - Jimmy Eat World (61)

(Name the number of songs and the first song that comes up on shuffle for each:)

Find "sex," how many songs show up? 2
Do Ya Think I'm Sexy - Rod Stewart

Find "death," how many songs show up? 1
I Just Wanna Live - Good Charlotte (The Chronicles of Life and Death)

Find "love," how many songs show up? 37
Love Shack - B52's

That was fun.

St. James Day today!! YAY! And there's no school on Tuesday or Wednesday!! SCORE!! Happiness. That means I'll be doing my US essay rewrite, US vocab, physics homework, and research articles then and not do them today. But I do have to do my dialectical journal for The Minister's Black Veil for tomorrow and I left the sheet in school, so Jess is making me a copy and giving it to me at St. James day so it'll be all good. Because we all know how much I'd be devastated if I couldn't do my english homework.

Yesterday I went to another Army football game at West Point, their homecoming game, and they did better than last time but I think they still lost. :( You'd think that the military would be able to put a decent football team together. Oh well. I finally got an Army teeshirt :D.

After the game we met Uncle Jesse and since he works there he showed us around all the cadet-only areas including the mess hall (it's bigger than the Great Hall in the Harry Potter movies times 5) and we also saw the new athletic facility with this million dollar rock wall, huge two-floor gyms (one on the second floor and one on the fourth), aerobic center (they had a barre!! I was so excited and I started stretching and then was like...wait...everyone's watching me haha), and this amazing pool that they make waves in for the cadets to do this training exercise where they have to step backwards into the pool (in all their combat gear), swim ten yards to the other side, ditch their gear but keep their weapon, swim twenty five yards to the other end of the pool, ditch their weapon, swim another ten yards by this hoop thing and then get back to where they started. Or something like that. All the while it's pitch black, there are strobe lights going, smoke all around, there's simulated rain (PVC pipes with holes in them are run through the ceiling and water is pumped through them) and gun- and cannon-fire sounds on speakers throughout the room. Scary...my uncle was in there when they were doing it once and he said it was really cool and realistic, which is why I would never want to do it. ;) That's only one of three pools...there's another one that we saw that's like the one at Brentwood (25 yards by 25 meters) and another one that we didn't see that we didn't hear about either. But my goodness that place is huge and soooooo beautiful...if you didn't have to be in the army I'd love to go to West Point.

There's not much else to talk about, so...bye all! :)

Okay. We've got some problems here. When you cry over your physics homework three nights in a row something is definitely wrong.

I'm so stressed out I can barely even describe it. I missed swimming yesterday for science olympiads and I missed it again today for a national honor society meeting (that I didn't really have to go to, it turns out...psh). And I also missed ballet last night and my mom called to tell them that I'm dropping it which I really want to do like I can't even tell you because I hate ballet with such a passion, but if I don't take ballet I can't be in the opening, or finale, or go to competition or Disney or ANYTHING. I hate how they hold it over your head like that. But then I was thinking...what if I just quit dance all together? I know this is what I was fighting against a few entries ago...but everything is so insane...when it takes me three hours to do a few physics problems there isn't much time to do anything else. I'm already blowing off other homework and that's not good, seeing as this is the most important year of high school. I love dancing and I love swimming and I love being in AP classes even though they're stressful...I certainly wouldn't want to be in regents classes because I'm just spoiled like that and having to deal with one a day is enough. There's so much pressure...there's going to be a band test in three weeks and there's absolutely no time whatsoever for me to practice, like ever. Even on weekends I'm totally swamped with homework and whatever else I'm doing...oh, yeah, important stuff like sleeping. Then there's also science olympiads that I have to study for and plan things for and we're applying to National Honor Society soon...I have two weeks to fill out that application. Two weeks. On top of everything else that I have to do! I haven't even gotten to research yet, which I really can't stand because it makes me feel stupid (so does computer science but I haven't gotten to THAT yet either) because I can't find a freaking project topic and I really don't want to have to do a project in addition to all the other crap that's taking over my life as of now. Someone wrote in my yearbook that junior year was their favorite year of high school. As Jill would say, "What are they smoking??" I couldn't tell ya, my friend. Couldn't tell ya. Junior year is hell. Avoid it if you can. Which you can't so sucks for you!

I've been in such a bad mood lately. I find myself snapping at people because I'm so tired and frustrated and I've never been like that and I feel bad. I've always had a great relationship with my mom and now I feel like I'm being sarcastic with her all the time. Then there's the problem with falling asleep in classes (I fell asleep in French last week and almost fell asleep in math either Monday or Tuesday, I don't remember, something like that). In research on Tuesday (OMG I HATE THAT CLASS SO MUCH) I was trying to read this first place essay about mapping the rice genome or something and it really didn't strike my fancy and I didn't understand any of the technical language anyway, so I was just basically sleeping. I don't know how I'm managing As in math and english and AP US...and I got a B on my physics test, which is a HUGE improvement from how miserably I failed last week. I have a B+ average which I should be able to pull up because even though I'm retarded when I'm home I can do all the stuff in class. Go figure.

And I've also been thinking. This sounds sort of shallow but I want a boyfriend really badly. I want someone to want to be with me, to want to kiss me and hug me and comfort me and tell me I'm beautiful. I want someone to call my own. But there's also the problem that I don't have any time to devote to a relationship. Not that I wouldn't love one, of course, as I've previously explained, but I don't think I'd be able to give it the effort and attention it deserved. And the prom is this year, too. I won't even get into the East-West prom issue. I don't know...now I'm just rambling...and for goodness sake I think I like someone my friend likes. Who shall remain nameless. Both of them. ::sigh::

Now I'm thinking of blowing off dance again tonight in favor of a loooooooong, hot shower and early bed. But will my mom let me? That remains to be seen. I've just been so completely miserable since school started that I can't think of anything else except sleeping and eating once I'm home. Not to mention all day during school I'm constantly wanting to be at home sleeping. Or reading and listening to music, that would be nice. Or anything that doesn't involve school.

Well...I must be going. It's taken me about two hours to write this in between doing physics...fun stuff, man. Bye.